I woke up this morning with this overwhelming feeling of urgency. Odd feeling for a Sunday Morning as I woke up thanking God for all he has done for me, my family and my work. Torn with whether or not to go to church, when there should have been no debate; I let the feeling overwhelm and paralyze me. When you are immerse in the ministry of saving people its hard to determine when to break away and save yourself.
My heart aches for my people and my community and I’m faithful enough to know that God can heal all things and there is a lesson in the process. I thank God for my passion, purpose and position. Because of it, I want so much for my family, children, church, friends and community. I recognize I’m just one solider on the battle field and there are other brothers and sisters that God has anointed to battle in their own way. Knowing All this; it still doesn’t stop me from wanting to save the world myself.
I accept, I can’t do it by myself. I also understand that the work will only be done by a few. Yet that still doesn’t stop me from wanting to save the world by myself. I guess what I really want for myself and for others like me, is that God will rest upon us; patience, hope and the passion never to give up.
I’m realizing that “urgency” isn’t an emotion, but it is a state of mind. One that we must content with in order to press forward. This thing that I have; this compassion and desire to want the best for people; I can’t give it back. Its part of who I am; its the gift God has instilled in me. It’s my work, my mission, my ministry. It’s what will drive me to my last breathe.
God I give myself to you to use me and accomplish the things you have placed in my life. I now understand that the urgency in me is really your presence over me. Thus without it, I am without you.
Now; I stand on my feet and ready myself for the world, the task, the ministry knowing that I am blessed to be chosen. THANK YOU GOD for allowing me to serve.